Thinking

Just wondering if I want to start this up again. I have been doing my best to just not think about things and just live the way that I am.  I still don't like me much but if I fill my mind with other stuff then I don't have to deal with reality. I try to avoid the mirror at all cost then I don't have to see the real me. I just imagine me the way I want to be it does work "sometime". Sorry for dropping out but sometimes that is all you can do.